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It is so, so important to have a community of brothers and sisters in Christ who can pray with and for you, who can share your struggles, and who you can help when they are struggling. CHRISTIANITY IS NOT A LONE WOLF FAITH. You have got to have brothers and sisters to help keep you strong and to help you back up when you stumble. And it’s a great way to be there for other people when they need you too! I am so, so thankful for my great friend and pastor Ruby. She is amazing, and I don’t know what I’d do without her! And my wonderful friend Victoria, who actually helped me start my prayer group here in Pampa! She has taught me things about myself and my faith, and I hope and pray that I’ve done the same for her. I am thankful for my great sister, who also helped start the prayer group. She reminds me of things that I need to know, and I remind her of things she needs to know. It’s just so important to have community like that. To surround yourself with people that will help you grow in your faith! So look around in your town or area and try to find some strong Christians to help you grow!

Life update: February 2018

Hey guys!

Thought I’d give y’all a quick life update. Mainly been doing school, but been going through some emotional stuff too. To any readers who deal with self-hatred, please, please remember that you are forgiven. You are loved. You are a child of God. Seriously, you are not Jesus, so quit hating yourself for not being perfect. God really does forgive you when you mess up, so when you don’t forgive yourself that’s almost like saying Jesus dying for your sins on the cross is good enough for God but not you. So please. Don’t hate yourself. Look in the mirror and say, “God made me. I am beautiful. I am loved.  I am a mess, yes, but a beautiful mess because God is in me. Working on me. Turning me into His masterpiece.” Now time for me to take my own advice. I know that it is hard when what people expect of you because you are a Christian is not a reality, and you are trying as hard as you can to make it a reality. Like having the right opinions of yourself, as a Child of God. It really stinks to know all the answers and be able to fully believe them about anyone else but yourself. For over two years now, since a little before I gave my life to God, I have been dealing with some really intense self-hatred. Now it hasn’t been too much of a problem most of the time, I mean, it wasn’t right, but it wasn’t wrong to the point of me thinking I needed to actually reach out and get help. Recently it’s gotten worse. But that’s not the point! The point is that I know, with everything that I am that God is going to pull me out of here. That He is going to take this and turn it into a wonderful part of my story. My story, written by God. When you read a good book you don’t tribute it’s goodness to the charectars, but the the author, who wrote the story in the first place. I pray with all that I am that when people look at my life, they give the credit to the Author of my life, my Almighty Father and King. You know God is amazing, and I love Him with all I am. He is going to teach me how to have a healthy love for myself so that I can truly embrace and help others. God is good. All of the time. I firmly believe that, and hope that you do too. But yeah, that’s kind of where I am, emotionally. Trying to get out of this rut and then hating myself for being in it in the first place. Then I hate myself for hating myself. Ironic, is it not? Anyways. God’s got this. He’s amazing, I love Him, and He’s got this. Hope that you have a great day! Truly, hope that I can bring joy and inspiration to your life because of God the Father in me! That’s my only purpose in life, after all, is to help people see God in me and want to come to Him and live for Him! He is eternally amazing!


-Aubrey Carr

New year!!

Hey guys!

I’m sure a lot of you are reading this while trying to stay up until midnight to see the new year! I know I’m writing this partially to the time until 12 am. This isn’t the only reason I’m writing though. You see, I thought I’d share a little bit of what’s been going on. What my family has accomplished in the past year, and what I personally hope to accomplish in 2018. As some of you know, my family has been through a LOT, and I do mean a LOT in the past year. The beginning of last year my father was struggling through a horrible time at his previous job. His boss was completely unfair and the workplace corrupt. At the end of January, he lost his job. Luckily he had been in contact with a group here in our current town and was able to get a loan to start his own business. The problem? Our old house was over an hour away. We had no practical choice but to sell the house we built ourselves and had happily lived in for 9 years, and move. Of course with my dad not having a job at the time, the finances were limited, and we were afraid moving would be downgrading a lot. God blessed us though by giving us the perfect house that we never thought we could afford.  He granted us an impossible blessing.  After purchasing the new house we had less than a week to get out of the old one and into the new one. Again, God provided, sending us friends and family to help. We made it. On top of everything else, unpacking, new furniture, decorating, losing old friends, joining a new church and all of that, we are homeschooled, and my mom had to prepare the curriculum and the classroom by August.  She was amazing, and we were able to start school and keep on track! After this and several financial and academic challenges, we realize my dad’s business is not capable of fully supporting us yet, and he needs a job. After weeks of searching and applying everywhere, God yet again provides and answers our prayers. My dad gets a job! And a good one too, one he enjoys. I am so, so thankful for all that God has gotten us through this year. So thankful. Now, to go into what I hope to achieve personally in 2018. I really just want to figure out what God has planned, and follow it with everything I am. I am His. I want Him to work through me in 2018. I pray that you feel the same. God is good.  He is so, so good. Happy New Year Y’all!!!


-Aubrey Carr

Life thoughts at 15

Hi guys,

Sorry I haven’t written in such a long time! Between moving and summer camp writing on my website completely slipped my mind! Considering I haven’t written since April there is so much to tell you! Moving to a new area, away from so many friends (not to mention the home that we built) was most certainly a challenge. I wish I could say that I trusted God and everything was fine, though, in the end, that is the truth. Let’s just say that through many challenges and trials, God got us to a home better than we could ever hope for. Though we have faced, and still face, a variety of new problems with this house, it is most certainly a blessing to have it. I have my own room, which is more than I had ever hoped for! My dad’s business is getting started and my mom is setting up for next year’s school. Life continues, which is more than I ever could have pictured so many months ago when I heard we were moving. How many things change in a year! Last year our plan was to stay at our old house forever, and for my dad to continue working at his old job! In February, he lost his job, in April, we decided to move. On my last birthday I thought my life would be pretty similar in the next year- how wrong I was! My life is anything but similar to my life a year ago! However, it is a good life, and I am so grateful for it.  So many of us are so blessed, and we fail to realize it.  I have a wonderful family, a great house, and a God who loves me, I have the life that so many teens these days dream of or envy, and I don’t know what to say to that. God has blessed me so much, and I am trying so hard to be truly grateful for that every single day.

For me, birthdays are a day to make resolutions for yourself, to set high goals and determine who you will be in the next year of your life. This year I have so many goals that I am not sure I will reach them all, but I will most certainly try. Starting day after tomorrow, on my actual birthday, I have so many bad habits to break, and so many good ones to start. I am also determined to get back into the habit of reading my Bible every morning and every night. Knowing God’s word is essential to knowing God, after all. So many Christians are trying so hard to develop their relationship with God without developing their knowledge of scripture. And, though it is possible, it is the longer, harder road. On that thought I will leave you, for I have other things to do. Remember that God will always love you. He will never, ever forsake you.




Please open your Bibles to 1 John chapter 2.

Verse 1 reminds us that we need to try not to sin, and that when we do sin there’s someone up there who is willing to plead our case with our Heavenly Father.

Verse 2 in my Bible is He Himself is the propitiation for our sins, then in the notes at the bottom it says the word propitiation has to do with the removal of divine wrath.  Jesus removes God’s wrath from us, if we turn to Him. Not just the Church, but the Muslims, the ones without faith,  anyone who will turn away from the hatred and mess that this world has become… and turn to Jesus. This invitation has been extended to anyone. We definitely do not have the right to pick and choose, so why do we act like we do? All the time we are hateful, and purposely hurt the feeling of the people that Jesus loves, and have been invited to join us in our amazing faith.

Verse 3-4 God has given us lot’s and lots of guidance in the book that is in my lap right now. There are so many examples of the instructions that He has given us.  When we say that we have become a Christian, we have accepted the calling to obey those instructions as closely as we possible can. I have seen so many people who go to Church and pray, and then turn into somebody else as soon as they step outside those doors. They don’t follow those commands, and it says right in verse 4 that they are liars. Does it say that that gives us a right to be hateful to them, or say mean things to or about them? No!

Verses 5-6 But whoever keeps His word, truly in him (or her!) the love of God has been perfected.  This is how we know that we are in Him; if we walk as He walked. Taking the phrase WWJD straight to heart, and thinking about it in every decision and situation. Going towards everything with courage and love and kindness, or as much of it as we can muster up anyway. We, as Christians are called to treat people the way that Jesus would treat them, and though we have not perfected that yet, we really do need to try as much as we can to do so. Oh, and another thing that Jesus was- Selfless. So, completely, utterly selfless.

Verses 7-8 This isn’t some new thing, we have always been called to have these characteristics, even before Jesus. And yet, it is kind of a new thing, simply because we have an example to follow. Jesus defeated darkness, not quite yet, but in the long run. He defeated death as well.

Verses 9-11 You cannot claim to be a Christian and then go on and on about this person you hate. If you are in the light you do whatever it takes to help your brother or sister, like them or not.

Dear Heavenly Father,

You have made a wonderful book, in which is everything we’ll ever need to live as you lived. There are so many instructions, I know that I can’t stick to all of them perfectly, but I will try really hard. Please write those words on my heart, the ones about loving my brother, and please help me to seek You, with everything that I am. I love You.



Emotions: Crazy, unpredictable feelings that tend to make us say and do things that we wouldn’t normally do.

  • Anger: Some people are more quick to anger than others, some people can control their anger better than others, whatever the case, I know that I have a problem with anger. When my siblings point out that I haven’t spent much time playing with them lately, I get angry, mostly at myself, because it’s true. Honestly, I get angry with myself a whole lot more than I get angry with other people. I tend to pin the blame for everything on myself, because it keeps me from sinning against other people, and from doing things I would regret in the future. James 1:19-20 says this, My dearly loved brothers, understand this: everyone must be quick to hear, slow to speak, and slow to anger. For man‘s anger does not accomplish God’s righteousnessThis is really very true. It is hard to be slow to anger, I have tried really, really hard to get better at this, and it’s not coming along as well as I’d like.  It takes a lot of patience to not get angry, and say or do something that I regret later when my sister lays on top of me when I’m trying to go to sleep, and won’t get off, for ten minutes. I need to take that up to God, and let Him take it away. See, when you get angry God wants you to go to Him and tell Him all about it, and let Him take it away. I’ve been trying to do that, and have gotten to the point where, when I’m angry I do go to God, and I go to my Bible. It’s helped a lot, and if it does not help, I listen to Gordan Lightfoot, which, you know, is not as Biblical, but it helps. Gordan Lightfoot’s music is very relaxing. So if you go to your Bible most of the time, that is really good! Congrats! If not, that’s OK, just try to do it next time you get mad.
  • Grumpy: OK, I have no solution to this, we all have bad days, the main thing is to pray a lot, and try to read your Bible. For me, I cannot have a good attitude until I’ve bawled my eyes out for about ten minutes. After that I’m completely fine. It’s not like it fades out or anything it’s like waaa-I’m fine. It’s weird. I don’t know what it’s like to be grumpy like a normal person.
  • Sad: With sadness, it really just takes time, and a lot of praying. There are lot’s of comforting things in the Bible too. Yes, Joshua 1:9 says to be brave and courageous, but sometimes you just have to breath, and lean on God.
  • Happy! This is a good emotion! Not very many of those, happiness really, is the main one. When your happy, that’s when it is the easiest to trust in God. This is a good time to write down all those good verses about trusting God, being joyful and things like that, that way when you are upset you’ll remember what these verses mean to you.
  • Fear: Of change, of loss, for a loved one, the main thing is to trust in God, and remember Jeremiah 29:11.

If y’all have any questions or comments please let me know!

Love is Patient

I have memorized 1 Corinthians 13, and it is an amazing chapter. I have three siblings and lately, ever I get frustrated (Hint: I do)  I think of verse 4, “Love is patient, love is kind. Love does not envy.” Basically, a guideline to loving your siblings when they frustrate you. Or people in general when they frustrate you. Jesus said to love your neighbor as yourself, and when somebody asked, “who is my neighbor?” Jesus answered, everybody. Love everybody the way it describes in 1 Corinthians 13. Verses 1-3 basically say that you can do tons of good, biblical, amazing things for God, but if you do them without love, they mean nothing to God.

So don’t just treat them well because it’s the right thing to do, treat them well because:

  1. You love them.
  2. Because we are trying to be like Jesus, and Jesus loved everybody.
  3. Because you love God who told you to be nice to them.

I know somebody who is such a nice person to be around, but she is so, so hateful to people who have wronged her, and that’s just not right. Did Jesus love people and be nice to people only when those people loved Him? No! How many people have done so much to show that they hate even the Idea of Jesus, and yet Jesus still loved them? A LOT of people. Loving with patience that seems supernatural is a good way to show God’s love. One of my good friends does not have the patience that I have worked hard to get, when we are hanging out one of my siblings will start to pester us  and he wants to lot them out, or do something mean, but when I say “no”, and go and talk to my siblings about doing something else he just doesn’t understand how I could have that much patience with them. Then he is dumbfounded when my siblings come back and pester us again and I still don’t yell at them. Patience is not a natural thing, you have to be raised to be patient, for one thing, and another thing is you have to work on it, you have to pray about it, and pursue that virtue. The more you do that, the more patience you have!

Dear LORD,

Thank You so much for the patience you have given me already. Please help me to pursue it well, so that I can have as much patience as Jesus had with the Pharisees, and with people today. Please help me to try to be patient, because it does take effort on my part. I love You.


Wisdom v.s. Knowledge

The fear of the LORD is the beginning of knowledge; fools despise wisdom and instructions.

Proverbs 1:7

For wisdom will enter your mind, and knowledge will delight your heart.

Proverbs 2:10

I could read proverbs all day and not find or understand all the verses in there about wisdom and knowledge. There are so many! I also like to look up quotes about wisdom and knowledge, one of my personal favorites is by Miles Kingston,  “Knowledge is knowing a tomato is a fruit, wisdom is not putting it in a fruit salad.”

Wisdom , for me,  is the ability to make good choices and good decisions and good judgements.Wisdom is having the ability to do something wrong and not doing it.

Knowledge is information which someone is aware of. Something you could find in a book.

Anyone smart could be a criminal, anyone with wisdom would not.

Show God’s Joy

God has truly given us a reason to be happy, He sent His only Son to save us, and if we truly have taken Him into our hearts, then we should be full of joy! I have been reading the historical fiction books about Millie Keith and her family as they struggle through moving to a new home on the wild frontier. One of the characters in this book is Miss Drybread, who the Keith’s find difficult to get along with. Why? Because she claims to be Christian and yet fails to show the joy of one who has been saved. Those who are solemn and gloomy and telling of the bad things in life are not being at all grateful of the things God has given them, and that’s wrong.

Inner Beauty Part 2: Judging ourselves

1 Samuel 16:7

Another problem with us (humans) and beauty: we pay way too much attention to our personal outer beauty.  How much time do you spend in the mirror everyday? How many times have you worried about the way you looked? God doesn’t really care about weather or not our mascara is running, He doesn’t care if our hair is messed up, He doesn’t care what brand of clothes we are wearing.  What He does care about is where our hearts are set, what kind of attitude we are having,  and how we’re planning  to spend our day.  Try this: Write         1 Samuel 16:7  on a note-card, and tape it to your bathroom mirror. Whenever you have spent a long time messing with yourself or admiring yourself in the mirror, stop, read the verse, think about it, and walk away asking God to help you be less concerned with what is visible, and more concerned about your heart.

The thing is, is God knows what’s in our heart, He knows when we are really sorry, so false apologies won’t do any good. Try really hard NOT to falsely anything to God. ‘Cause He knows weather you mean it or not.


Dear LORD,

Please help me to focus on what is really important. Please help us to clean up our hearts, not our face, or our hair, or whatever else.


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